Talking to myself
- Me: hi, this is new
- Cynic: not really, you pull this a lot, attempting to express yourself in different mediums, different spins, but in the end it's never honest. You lie, mostly to yourself hiding behind these things
- Me: can you shut up for a bit? We like to lie to ourselves. We have to lie to ourselves. We can't always say that honesty always works. Because that's what hope, belief, love and other things rely on. You lie enough about something, it'll come true. Sometimes lying is right, and living in a world where black and white says this is right and this is wrong doesn't work.
- Cynic: what about your little list of things you would and wouldn't do. Those are lines aren't they? You make your own blacks and whites
- Me: I do. I'm a hypocrite, I'm not always honest, I don't have any particular redeeming thing to say that I'm at least this, or you gotta give me that I'm that. I'm inconsistent. I realize that.
- Cynic: Now what?
- Me: Well I'm just checking to see that you're done. Because I'm aware of my flaws. I know them everyday. And I dwell on them. I want to keep myself honest about a lot of them, the ones that I think are really problematic. I know for example that I'm a coward.
- Coward: You're practical
- Arrogance: No, you're a coward. If you have something to say, then your'e supposed to say it.
- Cynic: Thats not what you always say.
- Arrogance: I know thats not what I always say. But I shouldn't be a coward. I shouldn't fear these things that really don't mean anything. There is no life and death situation. Even if a lot of the time I think that there are things more important than that.
- Cynic: more important than life and death?
- Arrogance: Yes.
